Opal Summerfield and The Battle of Fallmoon Gap by Mark Caldwell Jones

Author:Mark Caldwell Jones [Jones, Mark Caldwell]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Tags: Opal Summerfield and The Battle Of Fallmoon Gap
ISBN: 9780991037605
Publisher: Samurai Seven Books
Published: 2013-10-10T23:00:00+00:00

Professor Fromm’s hypnotic monotone continued. Opal lost focus and drifted among her own thoughts. She wanted to understand what the professor was saying, but she wasn’t sure his idea had any real weight. It sounded similar to Sugar’s late night talks, but Fromm’s focus on faith as a skill complicated everything she thought she’d learned from Sugar.

Sugar had talked about trusting yourself. The professor was promoting trust in something larger, something much more unfamiliar and mysterious.

What kind of faith should one really have? She wondered.

Faith in myself? She wasn’t very impressed with what she had to offer.

Faith in friends? So many things had gone wrong. So many people had turned out to be bad. So many had betrayed her. She struggled to think of one person who was truly trustworthy. Maybe Eltheon, but she really didn’t know her that well. Who was really on her side?

Faith in family? They were all dead. There was no family, not anymore.

Faith in God? Abner Worthington proved that people are capable of using God to justify just about anything, including murder! If there was a God, she really had no idea what he was truly like, or what he really wanted.

Faith in the magic of the Veil? Opal wasn’t even sure about Ms. Trudy’s explanation of the Veil. How could there be a separate world from Grigg’s Landing? If you are in one world, how do you know there is really another one. You can’t live in two at the same time. Honestly, what proof was there? It just didn’t add up.

Opal wondered if she really had the capacity for faith at all?

Maybe it was true, the thing she had always believed but never wanted to accept:

I’m the real problem!

None of these terrible things would have happened without her. She was the common element in all her personal tragedies. She felt incredibly desperate after having that thought. Was she a magnet for bad things? Shouldn’t only bad people attract bad things?

Perhaps her negative thinking was drawing all these horrible events into her life. Maybe she was a bad seed, doomed to reap a long string of disappointments.

If you don’t believe in anything, how can you make yourself have faith? How do you make yourself better if your core has been messed up from the beginning?

She had heard Abner Worthington preach about the sheep and the goats. Some are chosen; some are not.

He had preached, “At the end of all things, the great Lord will separate the good people from the bad, and the bad people will be punished. And all of these things have already been determined by God in advance.”

If all of that was true, what was the point of trying to rebuild your life. What was the point of trying to change anything? If you knew deep down you were a bundle of defects, and everyone around you thought the same, it seemed foolish to believe anything different.

Lying to yourself. Now that idea had merit! But Opal had never been able to lie to herself.

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